Alone

Karen left tonight to work in Moses Lake for about 3 to 6 months or more. Ok, I know it's only 2 flippin' hours away; but somehow tonight it feels like she's in a country on the other side of the world. This was the first time I cried when we had to spend time apart. Maybe because we just had pretty great week together (the first one in a while), I just don't really know why I became so emotional. Maybe it was the full moon.



Alone, I miss the feel of your touch

the smell of your skin,
the sound of your laugh.

Alone, I feel as if a part of me is missing
an emptiness within my stomach
an ache around my heart.



Alone, the animals gather around to offer comfort
a cat on my foot, a dog by my side
the television drowns my inner tears.



I watch Ellen on the "tube"
laughter and silliness, I forget myself for a moment
but then, pictures of Ellen and Portia
I think of next summer
a day we have dreamed of
vows of our love for each other


Alone tonight,
seeing each other one day a week
what feels today as forever,
will soon give us Forever.



I Love You.

D